I want to turn the \u201cFragment ed\u201d poem into a flash.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I did turn it into a weird flash.\u00a0 It started out funny.\u00a0 I mean as a funny idea.\u00a0 But within 500 words I\u00a0 wrote myself into a corner of one ending that was a huge downer.\u00a0 It took on a life of its own and it was an important angle to write, so I\u00a0 didn\u2019t ditch it.\u00a0 I didn\u2019t end up incorporating the hopeful angle of the poem, because it felt like too many themes.\u00a0 And right now I’m not taking on ambitious projects.\u00a0 But I\u00a0 still want to write the other, more hopeful version.\u00a0 Where I\u00a0 come out whole again.\u00a0 The flash was meant to be speculative.\u00a0 I guess the obstacle is the fearless and searching inventory.\u00a0 It\u2019s so specific.\u00a0 I want it to be something more general, but the fragmentation coming from a thorough systematic exercise seems to make logical sense.\u00a0 It can come from months of doing specific therapy, – but that\u2019s also specific.\u00a0 And I’ve learned that people aren\u2019t all that interested in psychological methods.\u00a0 I also don\u2019t want to make it sound like doing the 4th step leads to fragmentation.\u00a0 I just think it makes short story logic.\u00a0 Kind of direct explanation.\u00a0 \u201cI took a dictionary of faults\u201d – it could be all the self help books.\u00a0 Trying to find my exact defects.\u00a0 I could name the issues instead – boundaries, attachment, trauma, ptsd, not allowing myself to be loved, not loving myself.\u00a0 I went through a list of characteristics and attitudes.\u00a0 I\u2019m not opposed to lying – does that mean I’m dishonest? No.\u00a0 Lack of integrity? In some areas maybe.\u00a0 In some – I have a rigid integrity.\u00a0 I could do the self help book route.\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The reason to turn this into flash is for sharing with my critique group.\u00a0 1.\u00a0 I already have shared way too much of my life and \u201cwhat is wrong with me\u201d sounds like too much.\u00a0 2. It\u2019s a short story group, so bringing poetry doesn’t exactly fit.\u00a0 I can bring it in, but nobody specializes in poetry, and I\u00a0 don\u2019t even care to make this a well crafted poem, cause that\u2019s not what I\u00a0 write.\u00a0 I guess I\u00a0 care about the story more.\u00a0 And 1 was pretty important.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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